Jeremy’s due date is today. It hurts more than I thought it would. I always thought I would deliver early after having Johnathan at 38 weeks, so I didn’t think I would feel sentimental about this date at all. But I am pretty sore. I finished this painting I’ve been working on, to express and help work out the duality of the living baby inside me, and the spirit of the one that left too soon.

Ben is dealing with it in his own way, and is getting pretty good at playing that Eric Clapton song. I just hope that his blisters finish healing soon.

Phantom Kicks, acrylic on canvas, September 2007, Shae Lynette Cecka

Now that I actually have my guitar amp setup again, I started to learn this song a few days ago. It’s truly amazing. Sounds so simple when I listen to it, but every time I try to play it I can’t take my eyes away from the notes because of the tiny changes through each verse. I’m sure I’ll get it eventually. Either way, it’s nice to feel the blood throbbing in my fingers again as they get used to the strings.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I’ll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can’t stay
Here in heaven

Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please

(instrumental)

Beyond the door
There’s peace I’m sure.
And I know there’ll be no more…
Tears in heaven

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven

Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven

by Eric Clapton

For the last 8 days we have officially become residents (and homeowners) in the sunny state of Arizona. Picked up our drivers licenses last week that don’t expire until… 2047!?!?! I’ll make sure to enjoy our time here, but hopefully not for that long!