Jeremy’s Due Date
Jeremy’s due date is today. It hurts more than I thought it would. I always thought I would deliver early after having Johnathan at 38 weeks, so I didn’t think I would feel sentimental about this date at all. But I am pretty sore. I finished this painting I’ve been working on, to express and help work out the duality of the living baby inside me, and the spirit of the one that left too soon.
Ben is dealing with it in his own way, and is getting pretty good at playing that Eric Clapton song. I just hope that his blisters finish healing soon.
Phantom Kicks, acrylic on canvas, September 2007, Shae Lynette Cecka
September 25th, 2007 at 11:37 am
It’s beautiful Shae. I hope it gives you some comfort.
with love, mm
September 27th, 2007 at 1:18 pm
Dear Shae,
What a beautiful painting you have made. What a wonderful way to remember precious Jeremy. Our love to you always,
Meg
September 28th, 2007 at 3:19 pm
I praise God for you Shae Lynette. I thank him that you are able to paint,draw..write. You are truley gifted. You bless us all even amongst your grief. I have studied this painting countless times since you sent it to me via cell. I think I cry harder the more I view it. My heart crumbles in sobs for both you & Ben..& Johnathan…..& Jeremy. Precious Jeremy, I can’t imagine anything ever filling the void of your absence.
Shae, Thank you for sharing your feelings on canvas. You are remarkable. Your inner strength continually abounds my understanding.
Benjamin, I hope some day I might hear you play your heartfelt song for Jeremy. I doubt I’ll be able to sustain any outward compoisure then either.
I love you kids.
Always, Mom/Omi
December 21st, 2007 at 7:11 am
Beautiful.