I drafted an unpublished post titled, “Joshua, three months old.” This implies the following: I am a very busy mama, and I either need to type faster or write shorter. Here’s hoping that I finish this post before another month passes!

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Born: Wednesday, March 12th 2008
Time: 4:46 am
Weight: 7lb 11oz
Height: 20-1/2in

Mmm… tasty food. Homemade beer. The best company the world has to offer. What more can you ask for?

“On October 15, at 7:00 pm in all time zones, families around the United States will light candles in memory all of the precious babies that have been lost during pregnancy or in infancy. Too many families grieve in silence, sometimes never coming to terms with their loss.

If you or someone you know has suffered a miscarriage, stillbirth or infant loss due to SIDS, prematurity or other cause, we hope you will join us in this national tribute to create awareness of these tragic infant deaths and provide support to those that are suffering. “

Jeremy’s due date is today. It hurts more than I thought it would. I always thought I would deliver early after having Johnathan at 38 weeks, so I didn’t think I would feel sentimental about this date at all. But I am pretty sore. I finished this painting I’ve been working on, to express and help work out the duality of the living baby inside me, and the spirit of the one that left too soon.

Ben is dealing with it in his own way, and is getting pretty good at playing that Eric Clapton song. I just hope that his blisters finish healing soon.

Phantom Kicks, acrylic on canvas, September 2007, Shae Lynette Cecka