I drafted an unpublished post titled, “Joshua, three months old.” This implies the following: I am a very busy mama, and I either need to type faster or write shorter. Here’s hoping that I finish this post before another month passes!
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Born: Wednesday, March 12th 2008
Time: 4:46 am
Weight: 7lb 11oz
Height: 20-1/2in
Mmm… tasty food. Homemade beer. The best company the world has to offer. What more can you ask for?
“On October 15, at 7:00 pm in all time zones, families around the United States will light candles in memory all of the precious babies that have been lost during pregnancy or in infancy. Too many families grieve in silence, sometimes never coming to terms with their loss.
If you or someone you know has suffered a miscarriage, stillbirth or infant loss due to SIDS, prematurity or other cause, we hope you will join us in this national tribute to create awareness of these tragic infant deaths and provide support to those that are suffering. “
Jeremy’s due date is today. It hurts more than I thought it would. I always thought I would deliver early after having Johnathan at 38 weeks, so I didn’t think I would feel sentimental about this date at all. But I am pretty sore. I finished this painting I’ve been working on, to express and help work out the duality of the living baby inside me, and the spirit of the one that left too soon.
Ben is dealing with it in his own way, and is getting pretty good at playing that Eric Clapton song. I just hope that his blisters finish healing soon.
Phantom Kicks, acrylic on canvas, September 2007, Shae Lynette Cecka
Oh boy, here we go. So we accepted an offer on the house today and should be closing our chapter here by the end of the month! We are trying to get into this charming little home in Gilbert, Arizona. Johnathan and I are going to head out a week early and take our dear sweet time crawling down south so we can visit with everyone along the way. Ben is going to load up the truck on that last day and shoot right through, stopping only for gas and coffee I’m sure. Send a travel safety prayer our way!
Also, Ben and I celebrate our fourth wedding anniversary today! We spent it at the hospital looking at the ultrasound for our third baby! Nadeje measures only a little under half an inch, and is almost 7 weeks along. (s)he has a heartbeat, and is expected to arrive March 22, 2008.
So strange, the sonographer took one look at me and said, “seven weeks.” When he pulled the image up on the screen he said, “Oh, maybe a little earlier. I’m going to guess about 6 weeks, 4 days.” He joked that he was “way off” when the measurements proved to be one day’s difference.
Showing only a dark circle with a tiny white spot in it, Johnathan walked out of the hospital with the photo facing outward. “This is my baby,” he told people we walked by. He is a very proud big brother.
Nadeje, our little one’s in-utero name, is Czech for hope, something we must hold on to after the tragic events that occurred this spring. We will always love and miss Jeremy and this child in no way replaces him or our sadness, but it will add some love and joy to our home.
So much excitement my head is spinning.
Desert ho!