Ben & Shae Cecka's family in Gilbert, AZ

Well – the saga continues. A little more positive this time. Last week I was invited by a fellow student to a study session at Billygans. Three of us sat down and worked out math problems for 3^1/2 hours! They are doing much better in the class than I am but they were very willing to go back a few sections and work with me. It was a great help for me and it looks like I may become a regular during their weekend study sessions.

Just a quick note before he wakes…
Ji drank from a cup today- by himself! He brought it up and down like five times before the crash and spill. I sure am proud of that little guy. Of course he farts and I am proud, so…

Well – hours and hours of math studying and practicing really paid off on my first test. I nice big fat “F+” (no my teacher didn’t write in the “+” — that would have been cruel). Still, I’m only taking two classes and I don’t see how I can balance enough time between the two of them and keep up with the insane number of projects at work, and on top of that all (and most important) stay true to myself and be there for my family. This is what I profess to stand for right? So why do all these obstacles keep putting themselves in the way?

We’re faced with a dilemma now I’m afraid. Yet there are still too many unanswered questions and possibilties to make any immediate decisions. Something with have to change in the near future for my sanity. I will not miss my opportunity to develop a relationship with my son. The days and weeks are simply blurring by me and before I know it… who knows? I don’t.

I sure wish I could be in an English class again…